So I Didn't Have wifi Yesterday...

Oh. MY.

We finally made it!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This place is amazing.
But.
Let me start at the beginning...
So. Yesterday.

DAY ONE

Friday. I had to get all packed which was kind of hard. Considering that when we moved in December, I did some cleaning out, and threw away all my shorts. It didn't occur to me that summer would be here pretty quick.

But I did it!

Haha, then after a lot of setbacks with the car, we got on the road. 

(Oh, and because I bought a ton of these, I practically lived on them for the whole ride. Jolly Rancher chews.)

 I think I could die a happy person if I never saw another Jolly Rancher chew in my life.

So we drove all the way to Vegas. It was pretty uneventful. Then we got to our Hotel and slept...

DAY TWO

Waking up in Vegas... you know what? I don't really care for Vegas. If you are going there for vacation, I'm sorry. Every time I go, I hate it even more. No, it's not because all you can smell is smoke, and all you can see are slutty ads. Like neither of those things bug me. It's just that it's hot, and in the middle of nowhere.

But whatever.

So we went to a buffet for breakfast. To be honest, Vegas is the only time I ever make an exception for a buffet. But even then, I regret it right after... when will I ever learn? 

So.

We drove.

and drove.

and drove some more.

I fell asleep again, and when I woke up, we were in Barstow CA. I couldn't fall back to sleep. I was so excited to see the ocean. You guys probably don't even understand my love for the ocean. It's not just the romanticism of it all. I mean it's that, but it's more. It's that overwhelming feeling you get when it's right in front of you, and you realize how small you really are. I think that's why I love flying so much too. 

Of course I was the first to see it. And of course I was freaking out. Ugh I'm such a child. But I don't care. 

Finding the house was a little tricky. Oceanside is packed with spring-breakers... aaand off duty Naval officers. Uhhhhhhhh..... haha YES.

You guys. The house is amazing. I had a video tour, but blogger won't load it. So I'll either have pictures or a video tomorrow.

Tomorrow is going to be so nice. Beach day. There are these cute bikes in the garage and some boogie boards. Plus, the whole town is made up of cute little shops and there's this cute pier. Cute cute cute. I can't even wait! 

Goodnight

-A

Guys. It's Finally Here... Almost.

Tomorrow we leave. I can't even begin to tell you how excited I am for this vacation. I'm going to try and blog every day. Becaaaause. You know when you go on vacation, and you swear you'll remember every minute of every day? Then you get home and everyone asks about it, and you can't even keep the days straight, or remember which day you did what?

Yeah, that's not happening to this girl. Blogging. Every night.

So today is Thursday, tomorrow is Friday. I stayed home today to get a mountain of laundry done so I will have clothes to wear on vacation. And do cleaning around the house. Mom worked an all-nighter last night, so I'm watching the kiddies while she's sleeping. Also, I work tonight. That will be pretty awesome. 

Then tomorrow, the plan is to be out of here by 2 in the afternoon. We are roadtripping all the way there. Three adults (including muah), and five kiddies in one car... yeah, it's a great idea. Ha, it will actually be fun.. I hope...

So, someone should probably remind me not to forget my laptop. Please and Thankyou. Oh and my camera. I def can't forget either of those. If I do, I might just die. 

Anyways. So then after we leave, the plan is sleeping in Vegas, then onward to Cali the next day! Oceanside to be specific. I can't wait for this beach house. And I can't wait for Disneyland. I probably sound like such a kid, but Disneyland is one of my favorite places.  And I haven't been in sooo long. The past couple of times I've been to Cali, it was for wine country, or the beach, or just for exploring. 

Ohhhhh and today, I loaded up my phone with a ton of new music. I will have no shortage of the stuff. Like just listen to a few of my finds...

Welp, I will have plenty of pictures and stories for you tomorrow. Oh! and videos! Dad wants me to play with the new GoPro, so, I'll have videos for you too!

-A

Watch and Learn

I've watched this twice in class. And I don't know why, but I love it. 

So enjoy.

-A

You Really Do Only Live Once

You look at life differently if you really know what it's like, 

to think you're going to die. 

I put a lot of miles on my jeep this winter.

Driving, trying to think it all through.

Trying to wrap my mind around it.

.......................................

Every once in a while, I understood.

I got what life is all about.

My last visit up to Primary Children's, my doctor said everything looked good.

We thought it was all over.

We were both wrong.

How can you fight something you can never control?

......................................................................................................

Ha. You guys. One more week.

I need to get away.

-A

I think I gave up.

My week has been a nightmare.

 So hi. 

The term is over. 

I'm not taking the AP exam anymore. 

I don't like my pieces enough. I'm not confident in them.

 Except this one. I think I like this one. Also? I think I passed all my classes.

 If I didn't, I don't want to know about it. I never check my grades. And I don't want to start 

now that it's too late. But, at least the term is over. So next week should be nice. 

And then it's spring break. I really just have to keep reminding my self that

 soon I'll be on vacation. Because I've been going through a lot. 

And I sort of basically need this vacation... a lot. 

They say the sun can cure it all.

I'm hoping it can cure:

Heartbreak and
Stress.

{If the sun doesn't though, Disney Land should.}

-A

Cabin Fever

Ok, So maybe Utah isn't so bad. Annnd maybe, sometimes I even like it a little bit. But now. RIGHT NOW, I loath it. I'm completely sick for the beach. Like I was looking through these pictures from a couple spring breaks ago....

             ...and now, I really just can't wait for Spring Break. Like two weeks? Can it please come faster? I mean, just listen to how hard I've been working; I've finally got all my grades up (except AP art of course). And all my NC's are cleared. I pulled my first REAL all nighter to finish a book (that didn't even end up being due until the next B-day because my teacher is lazy and changed it). I scored a 105% on my math test. Sooo proud of myself on that one. Plus I've been taking shifts left and right at work (like between people getting sick, and two people quitting, it's been busy). Hahahahahaha oh yeah. I've been starting to run... and workout. Ugh it's been a little rough. I haven't been running in a year. But hey, did you notice? The sun is starting to come out on the daily. Which reminds me,  I'm starting to adjust to daylight savings. It's  been a total headache. Literally. 

Oh! I just cleared out my closet. Spring cleaning at its' finest. And you know that feeling when you do a deep clean? Where you get rid of all the old stuff that has been cluttering your room? And you suddenly feel like you can breathe, when you didn't even realize you were suffocating? Yes? No? Well I love it. I tend to clean whenever I know I am stressed. I know it's all in my head, and then it starts to kill my body. After I clean my room and closet out though, I can think. Like actually think. Which is so nice because it's almost summer, and I am almost graduated. And you know what? A little less stress might just get me through the last term of school. And also, it's nice to be able to breathe.                                 

-A

Let's Get This Show on the Road

Hey Hey you guys. Gueeeeeeessssss what.

"What" you ask?

I GRADUATE soon! 

High School has been fun. Like, really, it has been. But I'm finally ready to be done.

 It's taken me a long time to be able to say that. Because honestly? 

The future scares me to death.

 Growing up? Scares me.

 Moving out? Scaaaares me.

 Ha getting married? Terrifies me.

But now? Now, I can say graduating excites me. And I can't wait.

-A

Thoughts

Hmmm, I've had a break from blogging lately. I haven't known what to say. So I'm going to go with a stream of consciousness.

Minimal day today totally meant minimal effort. Sorry teachers. I know you are lazy too. Come down to my level maybe? No? K, screw you then. I'm currently stuffing my face with bread smothered in Nuetella. I haven't had Nuetella in a long time. I love it, well in little bits. {shout out to Kei right here. She loathes Nuetella. But I guess I love her anyways? Yeah, who are we kidding, she's amazing.} 

I want to go down to the lake. Actually I lied. I want to go somewhere where no one else goes for a photo shoot. I've already been to the lake...

{Photo credit: Logan. Edit credit: Nathalie}

I'm going to fail that AP portfolio exam. I need to go out and do like 20 shoots. Maybe that's what I'll be doing tomorrow. Ahhhhhhh no school tomorrow. Still wrapping my head around it.

I want to do Yoga so bad. And I also want to start running again. I look down in my yard and see the canal every day, and am like, ugh I need to go running. But you know what? It's still cold outside people. And I'm lazy. So I'll be sticking to the treadmill that my father so thoughtfully placed in the basement for me. 

So originally, I was going to write a post about my future. Then I realized, I don't want to talk about it. My future is such a mystery, Nancy Drew would be in heaven. I have almost no idea what I'm doing in school. No clue where I'm going to go for school. When I'm moving out. Where I'm moving out to. So, I'm living in the moment. 

Oh, last thought. Scott is adorable. I'm so happy he is in my life. 

 mmm yeah... 

That's all.

-A