You Really Do Only Live Once

You look at life differently if you really know what it's like, 

to think you're going to die. 

I put a lot of miles on my jeep this winter.

Driving, trying to think it all through.

Trying to wrap my mind around it.

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Every once in a while, I understood.

I got what life is all about.

My last visit up to Primary Children's, my doctor said everything looked good.

We thought it was all over.

We were both wrong.

How can you fight something you can never control?

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Ha. You guys. One more week.

I need to get away.

-A

I think I gave up.

My week has been a nightmare.

 So hi. 

The term is over. 

I'm not taking the AP exam anymore. 

I don't like my pieces enough. I'm not confident in them.

 Except this one. I think I like this one. Also? I think I passed all my classes.

 If I didn't, I don't want to know about it. I never check my grades. And I don't want to start 

now that it's too late. But, at least the term is over. So next week should be nice. 

And then it's spring break. I really just have to keep reminding my self that

 soon I'll be on vacation. Because I've been going through a lot. 

And I sort of basically need this vacation... a lot. 

They say the sun can cure it all.

I'm hoping it can cure:

Heartbreak and
Stress.

{If the sun doesn't though, Disney Land should.}

-A